is it reality? or is it nightmare?

in one side , i am happy because the national exam is over. but there are things that make me down. that make my eyes feels like burning. things that like nightmares , but worse : because this is reality.

i always try to forget all of my sadness, and just try smile in every situation, and just go ,hang out with my lovely friends that sometimes , they're the only thing that make me laugh and alive.

i hate to know that i wont get 100 in science national exam, so far , i have 4 wrong answers.

i hate that -someone- always say everything that she wants without feeling guilty or something, and i still smile but inside.......i am drowned, i just feel very sick inside , that something going to explode .

i hate it when people laughing for something that makes the other people cry . even if you can't see the cry, but the cry is inside . no one can see it.

i hate that a lot of kid cheating in national exam!!!!!! i hate the facts that there's a lot of corruption .

that i have to study hard , really hard, but the others just buy the answers of the exam and acting innocent receiving perfect marks with devil smile.

maybe your marks will be much better than me, and your sins more than me too

well whatever, the only thing i know is : if there's no one in the planet, and you need help , the only one that can help you is God , that makes you smile right now, that make you breathe right now, even make you laugh right now. your helper is God, not money. try to eat money if u can